Monday, September 30, 2013

How to Deal With Being Lost

I know I haven't posted in awhile. to be honest, I haven't really had time. It takes a lot of work to blow your savings, move across state, and look for a job. 

Yes, I moved to Cincinnati in June for a "fresh start." Got myself a temp job with a huge nonprofit foundation. I thought it'd get my foot in the door to my career. Instead I'm stuck with a month to go, no job prospects, living paycheck to paycheck, and in a small apartment with a nonexistent kitchen and a power hungry landlord, who is probably going to try to evict me (because I didn't go inside after curfew) as soon as I pay rent tomorrow.

The real question to this post is how long can you go before you're a failure? 

It's been almost 10 months since I've graduated university. I've been to interview after interview and haven't gotten any jobs. Not a bite, not even a nibble. I've been to two interviews in which someone has looked at my application and asked me what on earth my alma mater is, I had one even laugh. 

So where do we go from here?

The Christian-type would tell me to pray and it will all work out. He or she might even give me a bible verse or an inspirational quote. The scientist-type would tell me that the logical thing to do would be to get a small job that I want nothing to do with, then work my way up. The power-hungry would tell me to get any high paying job and tell me to stick with it. I'm none of those. 

I know the title of this is how to deal with being lost, but in all honesty, I don't even know how. I'm learning as I go. How do you know where to go when you're lost? There's not a map for life. We try to get by. We walk through life faking smiles and trying to support ourselves the best we can. When does it become too much?